Mawidge is a dweam wiffin a dweam

I am hoping that by quoting a well known movie/book, maybe just maybe people will think "Oh. . . she is quoting the Princess Bride. That is an awesome movie, I should read this blog!" Which makes me think of how I wish I could wear my Princess Bride shirt to work, but I feel it would be less than a good idea to wear a shirt with two people kissing so passionately around preschools. Which brings me back to my topic. . . sort of.

Mawidge, I mean marriage.

I have been married since October 17th, 2009. Of course mentally I am not entirely sure how long I have been married. I was actually engaged once before I married Michael Miller. I was engaged to a boy in Florida when I was 5. His name was Michael Baxter Crow (I like the name Michael, always have, always will) though he went by Baxter. Then we moved back up here from Florida, I lost the ring at church and decided the whole marriage was off.

Before Mike and I were married a lot of his co workers would tell him "It all changes after the wedding!", which may have been true, if we hadn't been living together before we were married. Some might call that living in sin, I call it smart. This way he could see if we could handle each others' flaws. Turns out we can.

I love being married. I mean. . . if we weren't married things wouldn't be that different really. Mostly I just love the relationship I am lucky enough to have with Mike. We talk about anything and everything together. We even talk about who we find attractive/ have crushes on. Now this. . . this I was a bit uncomfortable with at first. You see when we were dating I would find other people attractive, and maybe even a couple I had a crush on, and I would still always tell him. But we weren't married. Recently I have found someone else attractive more than just being like "huh, they are nice looking" but a full fledged crush. Well at first I beat myself up about it. . . but when Mike and I actually talked about it, it made me feel a lot better. Also he knew who it was. . . But I have to say when we talk about stuff like that, it is a little strange. Because at those moments it is almost like we are more like friends than husband and wife. I love that though. It is just part of our marriage. We are not only lovers, and husband and wife, we are best friends. I don't know that having such conversations would be good for all married couples, but it is for us.

So I guess really marriage isn't what rocks, I mean it does. . . what rocks is having someone that I am in love with, and can talk to anything and everything about. Also when I am with him feeling safe and the most comfortable ever.  And it just so happens that we are lucky enough to be able to get the benefits of marriage.